Artist Statement: 
 
When I make acrylic pour paintings, I usually do a batch of them together. This is one that was part of my black and white series. Originally I was going to stick with the vibrant mushroom theme, but this one made me feel something. It was different. 
 
It sat collecting dust for about a month until one day I was analyzing it. I saw a pelvis and vertebrae at the bottom. Instantly I envisioned a skeleton on its knees weeping. I decided to shade in everything except the part that was already there. 
 
The thing is that we think we have control over so much, which leads to carrying heavy loads of emotional baggage and the weight of the world. If we are not careful, our stress can consume us making it feel like we are drowning. 
 
I haven’t gone into full detail about the challenges I have faced this year, but I know that it changed me. I met the best and worst versions of myself in the midst of God humbling me often. I found myself on my knees a LOT, praying with tears flooding my eyes.
 
Something happened last week. It caused me to let go and give it to God. I chose to walk in faith instead of fear. When my mom passed in 2012, it felt like I lost everything… including myself for several years. I have lost everything before, so restarting has become a lot easier for me. So for the people commenting on my resilience… life gave me no other choice but to continue moving forward. I guess that is one of the blessings that came from something so tragic and soul crushing.
 
This painting serves as a reminder that it is in the pain that we find strength. One thing I learned in a class that I took a couple of years ago is that it was never ours to carry in the first place. It’s okay to set down your fears, stress, worries, hardships & insecurities at Gods feet. He will pick it up for you. It’s not your responsibility to “fix” everything. 
 
Sometimes when we grasp so tightly to a vision or an outcome. We are the ones suffocating it and not giving it room to breathe. This is your reminder that things will work out and that you can get through tough things. You might be at the edge of the cliff, but that is the highest point. God will meet you there. Your tears are not silent. They are watering the seeds of your hopes & dreams. 
 
This is called “Surrender”.
 
Have a beautiful week 🌱✨☀️
 
This is called “Symmetry”. 
 
Several hours were invested into this piece.
 
A clear satin semi-gloss finish was used to protect this piece.
 
This original painting comes with a signed certificate of authenticity by the artist.